~ A Little Hugg Fr0m EuU Would Keep Mii Happy FeRr The WHOLE Day.. XD ~


^v^ WelcOm3 ^v^




You dOn't hav3 tu be perf3ct fer mii..
Because I'm not perf3ct enOugh fer yOu..
I knOw that this fairytale will last lOng..
And fOr3v3r..
I did nOt regr3t knOwing yOu in the first place..
You walk3d intO my lif3,
And gav3 mii the happin3ss I want3d..
WithOut yOu,
my lif3 wOuld be incOmplet3..
You gav3 m3 ev3rything I want3d..


I'm in lOve with yOu befOr3 I met yOu..
It seems lik3 I saw yOu in my dr3ams..
When I finally saw yOu,
it seems that I'm waiting fOr my whOl3 lif3..
I kn3w that yOu're mOre than I want3d..
That is why I lOv3 yOu..



I just want a little hug frOm yOu..
And I wOuld be happy fOr the rest of the day..
Loving yOu is on3 of the great3st thing I ev3r had in my lif3..
I lOve yOu.. ^v^v


MII LOV3 YOU = YOU LOV3 MII XD ~L.O.V.3~


Friday, July 28, 2006 Y


Nw celebratin sister bday!! Yeah!!
Everyone juz finis eatin dinner onli!!
Tts y so late den celebrate!!

Took alot of pictures wors!!
Hehe..
Duno y cnt uplode in e blog!! Haiiz..
Mayb other days ba..

So fun!! Haha..

Sister sooo good!!
Got sooo many present!!
More den I do sia!! Wahaha..

I wan tUu b her!!

E cake was too sweet le!! Hehe..
But it ish stil nice!! Hehe..

Waitin fErr my bday cumin!! Haha..
Wonderin wat wil happen oN my bday!!
Hehe..

I did not ``regret loving you.. @ 9:32:00 PM




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Sister bday today!!

Now at LiJin house!!

Juz finish helpin Julia change her blogskin!!
I lyk Julia blogskin!!
So nice!!
I lyk e picture!! Hehe..

Goin tUu go home soon!! Cuz goin tUu help sistertake herbday cake!!
I cnt wait tUu eat e cake!! Seen tUu b so yummy!! Haha!!

Today.. Hav Amath PRACTICE!! I sooooo fad up wif e paper!! Duno how tUu do alot of e questions!! Haiiz..
Feel tt I'm a loser sia!! [ Isit?]

I hav goine crazy tis few days!! ZhiJen sit bside mii veri jatt latt!! Haha..
Keep on distrub by mii.. Hehe.. But no choiceI'm too stress le!! Haha..
Stress until I had gone crazy!!

Had tUu go home le..

Wehehehe..

Cake ish cumin soon!!

Things tUu Say..

TuU ZhiJen:
Sorry wors..
If I distrub eUu in school!! Hehe..
I hav no choice!!
Too stress le!! Haha!!

Tonitz I will cum bloggin again!!

I did not ``regret loving you.. @ 3:13:00 PM




Wednesday, July 26, 2006 Y


Depression!!
I'm so stress!!
Prelim cumin n I duno wats goin tUu happen next!!

I'M REALI VERI STRESS!!
HOW? Duno wan tUu study wat 1st!!
So many subject tUu study!!
I'M SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO STRESS!!
When I'm stress, my back ish goin tUu b pain!!
I hate it!! Cnt even sit properly!!
Sobb.. Sobb..

1 good question tt Eugene had brought out.. Tt ish wat eUu can do within 86400 sec? [ If I nt wrng] I was stil wonderin wat I can do? I onli noe tt everyday, I onli noe how tUu sleep.. Sleep ish e onli ting I noe ba.. Reached home den sleep until 7+pm den woke up.. At last onli left 1hr - 2hr tUu study le.. Haiiz.. Help arh!! How am I goin tUu do tUu make myself nt tUu sleep? Anyone can help?

Today, I'm totally went crazy!! Spent e whole physics lesson tokin tUu ZJ.. We may seen tUu b fightin ba.. Hehe.. Hehe.. But its fun.. Hehe.. It ish wat we do when we r too stress!! Wahahaha.. I dun hav any mood tUu learn Math!! I juz wan tUu get out of tis world n goine tUu somewhere tt has freedom!!

No stress, no depression, no pain, no worries..

Tts wat I wan..

CME lesson was FUN!! We went back tUu e histories!! Wat happen tUu our class durin this 3yrs 7mths n 26days.. It ish a fun tok.. Yup..

Sister bday ish cumin soon!! This Friday!! How? I onli order a cake fErr her.. I wan tUu c e cake!! Seen tUu b so nice!! I wil b e first 1 tUu eat e cake ba!! Wehehehe.. Mum ish payin fErr e cake.. Den wat abt mii? I duno wat tUu buy fErr her!!

Mayb nv even celebrate!! So sad!! Buy e cake fErr wat if nv celebrate!!??

Ermm...

Wallet?

Ermm..

File?

Hmmmm....

I duno.. Nthin can buy fErr her..

E best thing tUu make myself tUu forget abt one thing ish tUu make myself busy!!

Yesh!! Tt wil cure!!

I deep myself into e pool of homeworks!! I am so stress!! But tts e onli chance fErr mii tUu do so..Den I wil forget abt everything!!

Things tUu say..

Tuu Julia:
Hey!! Please go back tUu e noisy Julia lah!!
So weird sia when eUu r quiet!!
Ermm..
EuU look scary when eUu r quiet.. Hehe..
Please go back tUu e naughty n noisy Julia!!
Tts ish e real Julia!!

TuU ZhiJen:
Eh!! I wil nv lost tUu eUu!!
It ish e true okie..
People who concern n care fErr eUu ish more den mii lah!!
It ish true!! Julia oso agree wif mii!! Hehe..
I dun tink tt ppl who concern n care fErr mii ish more den eUu lah!!
Hmmm..
I dun even see a single person care n concern fErr mii wors.. Hehe..
Yeah!! Tts TRUE!!

TuU My Own Self..
Muz study wors..
Dun tink of other things le..
Dun b so stress when eUu r studyin..
Muz go step by step wors..
EuU wil make it one!! Yesh!!
It true!!
Muz believe in ur own self..







Time ish a doctor.. [ It ish true ba..]

I did not ``regret loving you.. @ 10:06:00 PM




Monday, July 24, 2006 Y


Surprisin.. Onli 2 ppl online nw..
Haha..

Today ish a bad luck day tUu mii.. Cuz Math PP result ish out!! I fail!!
Wahahaha!! E surprise news ish.............

MY "STUDENT" PASSED N I FAIL!!
I cnt believe it sia!! My marks had drop alot!!

Ish tis e miracle I say tt it wil happen? Oh my!! I cant believe it sia!! Nvm.. I wil believe it after a few days ba.. Sobb.. ='(

Tonitz e Hungry Ghost Gate open le!! Oh.. Muz slp early le!! Haha.. [ I'm too lame le!!]
It ish goin tUu b two months this yr!!

Preliem timetable had cum out le!! 11th August 2006 ish e 1st paper n it wil end at 20th August 2006!! [ If I nt wrng!!] Hehe.. Dun reali rmb ant it le!! So stress!! Muz go study nw!! MUZ NT SLACK LE!!


Gtg le!!
Havt eat dinner yet!! Haha..
Hungry!!

I did not ``regret loving you.. @ 8:10:00 PM




Sunday, July 23, 2006 Y


Yeah!!
I change my blogskin again!! Hehe..
Duno why I lyk tUu change my blogskin so often!! Haha..
This blogskin ish nice!! Haha..
Gtg le.. Dinner time!!

I did not ``regret loving you.. @ 7:03:00 PM




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Today ish early bloggin..
My house ish full of babies!! Haha..
My bady cousins hav cum tUu my house today..

So fun!! Haha..
Al r sooooooooo cute!! [ I'm crazy!!]

Goin out tUu eat later!! Yeah!! It muz b veri fun ba..

Haiiz.. Should I say tt I badly hurt or should I say tt I'm nt hurt? I reali duno abt it!! How am I able tUu help my own self?

Tink tt I onli noe how tUu help other ppl den helpin my own self ba.. Why isit lyk tt?


This few days hav no mood tUu study.. Preliem cumin soon n I stil lyk tt!!
Julia am I goin tUu b e same s eUu? But my thing is quite different frm eUu lah..


I wanna finished my xizo shuo!! But nt in e mood tUu write sia!!
Duno why I lyk tUu write sad story.. Haha.. Mayb I myself ish feelin sad ba..
Mayb wil finished my xiao shuo after 'N' Level ba.. It wil b a nice story.. XD


Preliem cumin soon..
Reali veri scared!!
I am reali scared of my English!!
So many subjects n topics tUu learn!!
How am I goin tUu rmb everything!!
My brain ish nt a memory card!!


Haiiz.. Juz hav tUu try my veri veri best!!



Sister 6th Bday ish cumin soon..
28 July.. Haiiz..
Duno wat tUu buy fErr her sia!!
Last yr brought fErr her a barbie doll cake!!
I spent $60+..
I'm broke tis yr so cnt buy fErr her a barbie doll!!
Wat should I buy?
Anyone who can give mii sum info?

I did not ``regret loving you.. @ 6:21:00 PM




Saturday, July 22, 2006 Y


I'm hurt agn!!
I'm hurt without any reason!!
Feelin weird!!

I dun wanna tUu continue promised e promise I had made!! I was feelin pain!! Reali reali reali reali veri pain!! I'M HURT!! Reali hurt!! My heart ish bleedin nw!! T.T



Can I break my promise nw?



Can eUu tEl mii?


Nvm.. Skip tis thingy..

Last two days nv cum bloggin.. Let mii juz give a summary..

Thusday.. Hmmmmm... Wat had happen? I dun reali rmb.. Oh shit ass!! I juz noe tt ppl who r havin Chinese Oral on Thusday were quite lucky!! Cuz deir conversation ish quite easy!![4 mii onli] Haiiz.. It ish over le.. I dun feel lyk tokin abt it le!! It ish nt a nice thing tUu b rmb..

Friday.. Ermm.. Tish one I noe e best!! Haha..
It was racial harmony day!! It was e best day!![ Can say so ba]
We had sum game durin recess.. Recess was 1hr!!

Take class photo!! Yeah!!
This ish nt e photo I wan..
Cuz i'm weird inside..
If wan tUu noe why I say so den try spottin mii ba..
This picture ish weird!!
Stil gt 1 mre tUu go ba.. But I dun hav it..
It ish e best racial hamony day we ever had ba..


In e Friday nitz.. I had tUu go tUu Ballet Under E Stars!!
Who gt go too..
Dey r Julia, QinMei, LiJin, Marina, ZhiJen, Khairi, Eugene n HongHui..
I may said tt it ish fun n I may say tt it ish borin!!

E most funny thing had cum..
Lucky draw time!!
I gt draw by e ppl[ Dunno who]..
Wat I get ish.......................
A thing tt u wil used it when eUu went tUu e beach!![ Dun wan tUu say!!]
Used ur imaginary tUu tink ba.. =P

Half way thru e concert Julia n mii went shoppin at PS..
So tired!! Reached home ish already 10:30pm le.. Sister had already fallen asleep..

Today.. I cnt sleep last nitz!! Duno why! Keep on havin bad dreams!! So scary!!




Things tUu say..

TuU My Ownself:
Over ish over..
Dere ish no use fErr eUu tUu went back tUu e past..
Time wun turn backwards..
Juz look forward tUu ur future..
EuU may find something miracle..

TuU Julia:
Dun give ur own heart tUu him wors..
EuU wil feel hurt when eUu noe e reali ans..
It ish true.. Cuz I had alot of experience b4 le..
Muz listened tUu mii leii..
I dun wanna eUu tUu go e same journay s mii..
It wil HURT eUu alot!!
Ur heart wil bleed until veri badly!!
E pain cnt b explain..
Thru my experience fErr abt 3yrs..
I think tt guys dun lyk gals tUu tel alot of ppl tt she lyk him..
Cuz e guys hav no where tUu hide deir face n dey wil stay far away frm e gals..
This may happen when e guys hav no interest in eUu..
Plz study nw!! Tish yr ish e most important yr fErr eUu lah!!
If eUu cnt continue tUu nxt yr..[ Of cuz tt ish nt true!! Touch wood..]
He wil surly blame himself until veri bad if he noe tt it ish his fault!!
Wil eUu wan tish tUu happen?
NOPE ritz?
So eUu muz study!!
Please!! I begg eUu..
Dun tink too much n study!!
Juz dun care wat he tink abt eUu n concentrate on ur studies!!
After 'N' Level, tortoise wil help eUu tUu asked him..
Okie?
It ish nt worth tUu tink abt him when ur exams ish cumin soon..
EuU muz control!!
Dun cuz of one thing eUu bcum lyk tt..
Tish ish NT e JULIA I NOE!!
I noe it ish difficult but eUu muz stil try!!
EuU nv try how do eUu noe eUu cnt?
Used my method ba..
EuU juz find something tt wil make eUu hate him..
But tt wil juz saty fErr awhile onli.. It wun stay long..
Okie le lah.. Enough of my tok le..
It ish al depend on urself..
NO ONE CAN HELP eUu unless eUu HELP UR OWNSELF!!

I did not ``regret loving you.. @ 10:58:00 PM




Wednesday, July 19, 2006 Y


Tish Ish Wat EuU ToLd Mii Last Time.....
I still rmb it..






Life Ish Onli Travelled Once..



Today's MomEnt Becom3 Tomorrow M3mory..



Enjoyed Every MomEnt, GoOd Or Bad..



Becuz The Gift Of Lif3 Ish Lif3 Itself!!

I did not ``regret loving you.. @ 10:02:00 PM




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Haiiz..
1st word ish already this le..
It ish a bad thing tUu do..
Wil I b bad luck 4 e rest of my life?
Mayb yesh n mayb nope..

Today, CHINESE 'N' LEVEL ORAL!! OMG!! I'm 2nd last 1!! I did badly sia!! How? E 2 teachers r so blur by wat I'm tokin!! E conversation was so s*ck!! Haiiz.. [Wonderin how many haiiz I goin tUu say..] I reali scared tt I goin tUu fail!! How? E passage was lyk............ I reali gt alot of words duno how tUu read!! Die!! Die!! Die!! Wish tt I can passed!! Please!!

Chinese was lyk........ Duno how tUu say!! Cher waste time tUu 'scold' ppl.. Or else can go through Oral thingy!! Why? Nvm.. It ish over!! No used of sayin it!!

Physics was...... Okie lah.. Nt too bad.. Mr Tan seen tUu b quite piss off.. Class dun wan listen tUu him..

Math... Haiiz.. Paper 2 onli 3 ppl passed!! Cnt believe it!! At first tot tt I fail!! But at last I juz noe tt I passed by juz a few marks ba.. Nt veri gd!! But at least I passed lah.. Haha..

English lesson watch movie.. Oh!! E movie was so nice sia!! Haha.. Al e bad words cum out.. Hehe.. God give him power!! I wish tt I oso can hav God power!! Haha.. But tt ish impossible ba.. If I had god power.. Wat wil i do neh.... Ermmmmmmm.....

Mayb I wil wan tUu hav revenge ba.. Hehe.. [May b it ish too bad ba] But tt wat I wan tUu do..

Chinese teacher called mii in e evenin.. Scared mii sia!! She asked mii abt how ish e oral.. I juz tel her e truth lor.. At last I miss alot of things!! Argh!! Reali feel lyk........................

Dun wan tUu say le!!

Chinese Preliem ish goin tUu b at 11/8/06.. Tts bad.. Cumin soon.. Scary!!






I cnt break my promise agn!!
Cuz of 1 particular ting!!
It ish veri difficult 4 mii tUu make n break e promise, cuz if I break e promise sumthing bad wil happen tUu mii..
And I nid tUu pay a high price 4 it!!



Muz I reali do it?


Yesh!!


Cuz eUu had already agree tUu it le n it ish too late 4 mii tUu feel regret!!


Frm nw on, I hav a heavy job tUu do le!!



No way 4 mii tUu feel regret nw..

I did not ``regret loving you.. @ 9:35:00 PM




Tuesday, July 18, 2006 Y


Yesh..
Muz b fast.. Mum dun allow mii but I stil cum in..
Haiiz..
She ish away nw..

Today, no school!! Yeah!! Cuz of poolin day.. Ya.. Duno wateva ish tt..

Went tUu watch Pirates Of E Carib wif Julia, QinMei, LiJin, WeiHao n WeiLiang at Tampiness..

Mornin woke up late.. Scared tt I'll b late.. Mum stil called mii mopped e floor, Sleep e floor.. Wth sia.. No time already stil called mii do.. Lucily I can finished everything quick!! Or else I duno how le.. Haiiz..

It was a nice show.. Haha.. Seen tUu b quite funny.. But dun reali noe e endin.. So blur.. Tink tt it wil hav Part 3 ba.. Who noe?

Went take neoprint.. Okie.. 1st time sia.. Duno wat I'm tokin.. After tt Mum called mii.. Cuz I muz reached home b4 7pm.. But I nv.. She shout until super loud sia!! Haiiz.. After tt I hav no mood le!! I not everyday goin out lah!! Juz a few time onli.. I actually enjoyed myself.. But at last eUu spoil it!! WTH? Everytime lyk tt de.. Hate it sia!! Wonderin when ish e nxt time I can go out le.. Mayb wun le ba.. Who noe?

Nvm.. Life ish lyk tt de..

Anyway nid tUu go le..

Mum cumin back soon..

If she noe I'll get scoldin or 4eva no nid used computer le!!

Other time den give more details ba..

Oh Ya!! Tmr had Chinese 'N' Level oral.. Wish 'N' Level chinese students GoOd LuCk!!

I did not ``regret loving you.. @ 8:58:00 PM




Saturday, July 15, 2006 Y


Yeah!!
I hav change my blogskin le!!
Hehe..

Duno why I lyk tUu change my blogskin so often?
Feel lyk it so I change lor.. Hehe..

Tish blogskin was rather nice ba.. Hehe..
It say wat I want tUu say..
Tts al I noe.. Haha..

Nvm..
I gtg le..

Havt eat my dinner yet!!
Feel so hungry.. Hehe..

I did not ``regret loving you.. @ 9:46:00 PM




Y


Ermm..
How r we goin tUu b happy?
Wat ish e feelin of happy?
Ish it tt when eUu r happy, eUu wil jump around or put on a smile fErr e whole day?
Or some other things?
Ermm..

3 days nv blog le.. Haiiz.. Ytd actually ish a happy day fErr mii but sumting bad happen in e nitz?

Reali sumting bad happen!! Wat happen?

Let mii juz say abt wat had happened last 3days..

Tish few days.. I had a sad stomach!! E pain cum n went off.. So piss off.. Today oso.. Mornin woke up.. Stomach pain le.. Haiiz.. Pain until cnt even stand up..

Went home n sleep until 7sumting.. So tired!! Veri veri veri tired!!!

On Wed.. We had Emath PP paper 2.. Oh!! I duno how tUu say? I can say tt it ish difficult n I can say tt it ish easy.. Ermm.. It can b easy ba.. Wish tt I can passed!! Haha..

On Thus.. Nthin reali happen ba.. If I nt wrng.. Cnt rmb anything.. Haiiz.. I onli can rmb ytd thingy.. Cuz it ish juz sux!!

On Fri.. Here cum e thing..

Mornin.. School was quite bored.. 1st lesson was SS.. Haiiz.. Do SBQ.. I duno how tUu do.. So juz anyhow do ba.. At last stil nid tUu pass up tUu cher.. Haiiz.. Bo bian.. Pass up lor.. Had no choice.. Math lesson we was doin Emath paper 1.. So bored!! Every week do paper 1.. Do until dun feel lyk doin le.. After skol oso do paper 1.. Cuz on tis cumin Mon we gt PP on math paper 1.. After school.. WeiHao said tt he ish hungry n cher went back tUu staff room n bring out al e chocolate n other thing 4 us tUu eat.. So wonderful.. I dun reali take others ppl foods.. Duno why? Tts why I nv take e chocolate after lesson.. Heh..

Went home.. I went tUu slp.. So tired.. N my mum suddenly woke mii up n scold mii.. WTF!! Duno why? Haiiz.. Nvm.. Dun tok abt it le..

Den in e nit3z.. I sid tt I wan tUu ued computer.. N my mum rejected!! N she keep on naggin n naggin!! WTH? Dun let mii stil wan scold mii.. No sense!!

Mum:Everyday dun study!! Onli noe how tUu watch tv n play computer!!
Mii:[Inside my heart] WTH? Who say I nv study? I got okie!? Onli eUu nv see it!!
Mum:Called eUu tUu clean ur room n eUu dun wan!!
Mii:[Inside my heart] Walau!! My things I wil take care 1!! No nid eUu tUu take care de!! I wil clean when I feel lyk it..
Mum:Called eUu help mii mopped e floor n eUu dun wan!!
Mii:[Inside my heart] Huh? I juz help eUu mopped e floor 2 days ago lah!! Den nw eUu called mii tUu mopped agn?! EuU tink I'm superwomen arh?
Mum:@#%^&*%#**&%@$^&%%#%^^&$%^@#$*%^
Mii:@$%#&%(*&^()%^#$%^(*)%^#$&%&(*)(%^#^(*_((^$%
So it continue...... It stop at 11sumting.. Frm 9pm nag n nag until 11sumting..
Haiiz.. Reali feel veri piss off..

Why ish my life so painful? Ish it true tt nobody noe n care fErr mii? Reali? Feel so sad.. Mii cried agn ytd.. I reali hate tUu cry.. But tt ish e onli choice I had tUu make myself feel beta..

How am I goin tUu help myself? I cnt even do anything.. I am useless.. Argh!! Reali veri veri veri veri veri veri useless!! Onli noe how tUu cry? ShiYun!! Cry oso no used!! It wil still b e same!! It has no cure tUu it!!

Thing wil b fine after a few years ltr.. [Wish so]






Read below..




A Friend... ish a tissue when eUu can't stop crying..
A Friend... ish a shoulder when eUu feel like dying..
A Friend... ish always listens when eUu have something to say..
A Friend... ish a week when eUu need a day..
A Friend... ish a crutch when eUu have a brokenheart..
A Friend... ish some glue when everything falls apart..
A Friend... ish a sun when the rain just won't stop..
A Friend... ish your'mom when eUu run into a cop..
A Friend... ish a phone call when eUu can't leave your home..
A Friend... ish a hand when eUu feel all alone..
A Friend... ish a wing if eUu want to fly..
A Friend... ish understands without knowing why..
A Friend... ish an ear for a secret to tell..
A Friend... ish an aspirin when your head hurts like hell..
A Friend... ish a love that can never let go..







Ish it true?




Mayb yesh..




Mayb nope..




Mayb it onli appeared in ur dream..





Who noe?

I did not ``regret loving you.. @ 7:58:00 PM




Tuesday, July 11, 2006 Y


Mii nid a shoulder tUu let mii cry on..
Why?
Cuz I reali nid sumone tUu console n help mii..

In school mii seen tUu be quite happy but it is nt true.. I'm nt in e good mood.. Remeberin abt e past make mii feel pain n sad.. It ish nt reali a nice thing tUu b rmb.. But it came tUu my mind suddenly.. I cant control it..

I am reali nt myself tish few days.. Went tUu school n bcum siao.. Keep on laughin n laughin.. I oso laugh when I dun feel lyk laughin.. Feel funny.. Yup..

Ish Express students so different frm N(A) students? Why N(A) students always left behind by teachers? We r juz slower den e EXPRESS students by 1year wat?! Mon actually had Emath PP but at last it was cancel.. Teachers forget abt us? Oh? It was reali bad.. Mayb it ish gd fErr some ppl but it ish oso bad fErr some other ppl..

Yesterday, was a weird day.. Mood change within 1 sec.. Can believe? Nope..
Durin school time, I keep on laughin n playin.. But after school, b4 goin tUu library my mood change.. Ya.. B4 1sec I was stil okie.. But duno wat happen n it end up lyk tt.. Wonderin wat had happen but I duno.. Duno wat I was thinkin at tt time.. Juz suddenly feelin moody..

Ytd durin P.E lesson we tok our CCA Cer.. Ya!! Tt ish e thing tt I dun wanna rmb.. Duno why I gt D7 for my CCA points!! I gt take part n frm Sec 1 till nw I hav been goin tUu dance lah!! But end up I hav no points!! WTH sia? Make no sense!! At least give mii a C6 I wil oso b happy le lor!! But giv mii a D7?! WTF lor!! Hate e CD chers!! Anyhow giv mii e CCA points!! If my points remain e same, I wil nt b goin tUu CD nxt yr le!! Hate it sia!! FO lah!!

Cnt even studied a single things in library!! Juz sat dere n eat n eat n spend money!! Haiiz.. I rather study at home or in school.. Duno why? Eveything had changed fErr mii.. I' weird!! Reali!! Argh!! Last time I lyk tUu study in Library but nw ish different!! Why? Why? I reali duno why?

When I hav change so much, I oso duno le.. I'm lost!! Wonderin where I am nw? Am I stil alive? Am I stil tinkin abt eUu? Mii cnt even get an ans fErr myself..

Today was much worst den ytd.. Nt in mood but stil laugh until lyk nobody business.. I am reali siao tish few days.. Yesh.. Stay back today after school tUu study.. I rather study in school den in library.. Much mre beta.. But I end up onli study e 1st chap on Chemistry!! Tt ish bad..

I fell alsleep when I reach home.. Feel so tired!! Woke up at 8:30pm.. Hehe..

Got scolded by mum agn.. Mii nid tUu teach my sister ENGLISH COMPRE!! Wth sia!! I wonderin her tuition teacher ish fErr wat 1? Stil nid mii tUu teach her do?? Why cnt juz ask e tuition teacher tUu help her? Reali dun understand lah? Tuition teacher ish fErr wat? Juz sit dere n make e questions n lay eggs ar? No ritz? Reali duno why? Tell my mum al tish n I ended up got scoldin her.. Reali cnt stnd it anymre..

Ish tish my life?
Reali?
Cnt I hav a beta life?

I reali nid a shoulder fErr mii tUu cry on..
Who wil tUu b e person lendin mii e shoulder?
Mayb dere ish no one ba..
But nvm..
My life wil still go on, no matter how pain or difficult it ish..
I wil survive by myself..

I wil hav tUu help my own self.. Nobody ish goin tUu help mii..
I am onli e one who noe myself e most..
Dere r no other ppl den myself..

I did not ``regret loving you.. @ 10:58:00 PM




Saturday, July 08, 2006 Y


New name fErr mii..
"Hehe" ish my new name..
Can anyone believe it?

New name fErr Julia tt ish "Haha"..
ZhiJen ish "Hoho"..
Yesh.. Reali dun believe tt ish my new name..

Okie.. Nvm.. Change topic..

Thusday was a moody day 4 mii.. Yesh.. Didnt even care e ppl who tok tUu mii.. Yup.. Feel so sad n angry.. Haiiz.. Wonderin why? Forget abt it le.. Hehe.. Nvm.. Juz forget abt e bad days n concentate on e happy days.. Yeah!!

Friday was a siao day 4 mii.. Friday I was back tUu myself le.. Yeah!! Haha..
Went AMK library wif ZhiJen, Julia, QinMei, LiJin, Siva n SinLi tUu study after school.. Nthin tUu do.. Spend abt 5hrs doin 1 Math question!! Cnt believe it sia!! Cnt reali concentrated in library.. Duno why?

Alot of things changed tish few days..

E world ish changin.. Everything had change in juz a few days! Why? Why does it happen? Ish it a gOod or a bad thing? I dun even noe!!

Somethings appeared tUu b gOod but somethings appeared tUu b bad.. Ish tish world fair or unfair? Who noe? We cnt even predict wat wil happen nxt..

Ish it true tt goOd or sAd memories wil b inside our mind foreva? Why cnt sAd memories juz disappeared frm our mind? Why muz it stay inside our mind? It ish pain when eUu rmb those sad memories.. Juz lyk thousands of arrows pierce into ur heart in a few seconds.. Yesh, tts e feelin.. Haiiz.. It ish reali veri painful!! Who wil understand n feel my pain? There r nobody..

Today, went tUu Bugis wif Julia n ZhiJen tUu but Suma's bday present.. Stand at tt shop fErr abt 30mins den buy e present.. Dun even noe wat tUu buy.. We juz buy a thing tt ish abt e toilet.. Yup.. Dere has a poem.. N it was super funny!! Haha.. I laugh until teeth wil drop.. Hehe.. Julia n ZhiJen laugh too.. Tink tt Suma wil b laughin too ba.. Wish so..

After finished buyin, we went tUu walk Bugis Street.. Wow!! So many ppl sia!! Hot!! Went tUu pray!! Yesh.. Pray tt my Math PP wil passed!! Ya!! Muz reali passed!! Cannot fail!! Mum duno tt I hav Math PP this cumin Monday.. Haha.. I havt even rmb al e formula althought I went tUu wrote al e formula down on e foolscape paper.. Duno wat I tokin.. Broken English!! Will I passed my English? Reali scared!! All along my English was sux!! Nvm even get 66 marks n above when I stepped into Secondary school!!

Went tUu eat Mac.. Yesh!! Mt tray was clean!! Haha.. Julia was still okie.. But e worst ish ZhiJen.. Haha.. E tray was so messy.. Haha.. [Opps!! I will get scoldin frm her] After tt I help her clean her tray den it was clean in e end!! Ya!! Haha.. Today I siao already!!

Went take neoprint!! Yeah!! E last time three of us take was at 31/08/05.. Veri long le.. Goin tUu b 1yr already!! Finally today we take!! So funny sia!! Haha.. E pic was nice!! Yeah!! Wth sia? Reali sumthing ish nt ritz wif mii..

Went home.. Sniff.. Dey left mii at City Hall.. So sad!! Alone.. E feelin was so sux!!

Reach home stil nid eat dinner..[Tt mayb supper ba] Quite late le..

Wonderin how heavy I am nw? Dun even dare tUu stand onto e weighin machine.. Scared tt I am over 60kg!! I cnt take e fact!! Keep on eatin chocolate.. Common sense tt I wil b fat ritz?

Here I end.. Duno when I am goin tUu cum in le..

Mayb 1 wk ltr n mayb a few days ltr..

Nxt wk Monday havin Emath PP Paper 2!! Scared sia!! GoOd Luck tUu al e Amath students.. Muz do well f3rr ur Emath paper!! Muz nt fail!! MUZ PASSED!! It ish a muz!!

I did not ``regret loving you.. @ 11:30:00 PM




Wednesday, July 05, 2006 Y


Shit ass sia!!
ORAL TODAY!! ARGH!!

Finally finish oral today le!! Yeah!! Muz feel happy 4 my own self!! Haha..

Yeah!! I gt a new name ytd.. Tt ish "Hehe".. Tt ish wat ZJ gav it tUu mii on3.. Ytd reali sumting wrng wif us.. Keep on playin n playin!! Haha.. Can say tt we r siao!! Haha.. Feelin veri stress ytd.. Haha.. Cuz today we gt ORAL!!

After social studies extra lesson.. Mii n ZJ seen tUu b veri stress.. [Can say tt] So we put our index finger on our head n sing lonely.. Haha.. [I noe everyone wil say sumting ish wrng wif us, but tt ish wat we do when we r too stress!!] Daren saw everything.. Argh!! So.. Nvm.. Nthin wil happen..

Lets go back tUu today thingy!!

English lesson cher let us hav Oral practice!! Argh!! Stupid sia!! Sa bo mii.. WeiLeong n Li shiyun sa bo mii first.. Den at last cher forgot abt it.. Den QinMei remind cher!! WTH!! I dun wanna read!! Go n die sia!! I dun wan read!! I was shiverin!! Both of my hands r numb!! WTH? Why? Why? I was so scared!! My both hand were so cold n my leg cnt even stand proberly!! Wonderin wat wil happen when it ish e reali Oral!! Wil it b lyk tt?

Sphew.. Luckily I was not so scared at e reali Oral!! But I was stil shiverin!! So scary!! Stupid WeiLiang!! Kimek!! Keep on tokin crap!! It ish nt funny!! It ish lame n eUu make mii mre scared!! I noe tt it wil mk eUu feel beta but tt doesnt mean tt it wil oso mk others ppl feel beta!! Nvm.. Say already oso no use!! Haiiz.. Waste my energy on typin!! Heh!!

Oral was stil okie!! Hehe.. Two cher.. 1 ish quite old n e other 1 is quite young.. I was tested by e quite old 1.. Yeah!! She ish quite friendly althought she seen tUu b quite sleepy.. E quite young 1 hav no expression.. So scary!! Haha.. It ish nt quite difficult!! I stil can do it.. But.. I keep on stoppin when I was readin e passage.. How? Wonderin how much cher wil give mii? Conversation.. Cher ask mii 4 question.. Onli 2 question I feel tt it ish easy.. Hehe.. At e end.. If my ear hav nthin wrng, I heard e quite young cher said tt good ideas.. Oh? Duno wat she mean.. Hehe.. Mayb it ish good news 4 mii, mayb it ish bad news 4 mii.. Hehe..

Anywhere.. TuU my god brother.. I wil promise eUu nt tUu tel other ppl abt e thingy.. TtS my promise tUu eUu.. Mayb I'll 4get abt e thingy.. Hehe.. Who noe?

Here cum e endin!! Nthin tUu say le..

Oh ya!! Forget abt sumthing important!! I wanna wish GoOd Luck tUu those ppl who r havin Oral on Monday.. Muz do ur best wors..

Cum in either on Saturday or Sunday!!

I did not ``regret loving you.. @ 10:23:00 PM




Monday, July 03, 2006 Y


Cnt sleep sia!!
Lag of sleep tis two days..
Haiiz.. Duno why lyk tt..

Today say wan slp at ard 12:45am but at last end up slpin at 2+am.. Haiiz.. Cnt sleep sia!! Wonderin why.. I wil wake up at ard 5+am.. Duno why den ltr cant sleep le.. Duno ish stress or sadness.. Wonderin wat sia? Cnt get an ans..

Mornin duno wan do wat.. Feel so bored!! Dun hav e mood tUu do hmewk or study.. Morin mum buy alot of bread den I finished everything.. Haha.. E rest of e ppl had nthin tUu eat.. Hehe.. Veri bad ritz? Haha.. Tts wat I do when I'm bored!! Afternoon I duno tt I nv eat.. Mum called mii eat but I nv heard abt it.. Till e nitz den I realised abt it..

Mood change alittle by nw.. Feelin okie by alittle bit.. Tts a gd news 4 mii.. Hehe.. But wonderin wat wil happen tUu mii tmr? Wil my mood went back tUu e same? If it reali happen I tink tmr my frenz wil b dead ba? Who noe? Dey wil either get scolded by mii or I wil dun care dem when dey called 4 mii?

Heart ish half feel wif sadness nw.. Although mum didnt do anything tUu mii today, cuz I stay in my room e whole day..

Reali missed e older days I had wif my Primary school frenz.. Wonderin why last time I'm so cheerful n I hav no worries.. Why I hav tUu tink abt so many things nw n nv smile juz lyk I did last last time? Reali missed my smile.. When wil my smile cum back tUu mii? When wil I bcum back tUu my ownself?

I hate tish kind of mii!! Reali feel lyk endin my life sumtime but it ish a foolish things tUu do.. I stil hav alot of thing tUu do ahead!! I havt make my wish cum true..

GoOd luck tUu those ppl who r havin deir English 'N' Level ORAL tmr.. Muz rmb tUu brng ur entry proof, IC n tie!! MUZ RMB WORS.. Mii oso wanna wish GoOd Luck tUu those who r havin ORAL on Wedesday and Thusday!! [Includin mii..]

Tts al 4 mii today..

TuU those who r feelin sad or moody.. [Includin mii..]
Muz cheer up wors!! EuU al stil hav a long way tUu go.. Muz put a smile on eUu everyday!!

I did not ``regret loving you.. @ 10:03:00 PM




Sunday, July 02, 2006 Y


Flooded wif t3ars..
Wonderin why?

Cnt control anymre 4 ytd tingy.. Why? Why muz everythng blame on mii? Reali wonderin why?

After ytd bloggin.. I went tUu bath n started tUu cry.. Reali cnt control aymre.. Everyday n everytime I control n control but til ytd I cnt control le.. So started tUu bust out.. Came out of bath room.. Didnt even c my mum's face.. Juz went into my room n lied on my bed.. N at tt time tears cumin out.. Cousin cum in my room n she heard mii cryin so she try tUu console mii.. She told mii her experience n I finally realised tt nt onli mii hav difficulties even my cousin n oso everyone in e world.. Cry 4 almost 2hrs.. But seen tUu hav no used.. It ish my first time my tears flooded over my family's problems..

Everyone wil hav deir difficulties.. Dey seen tUu b happy but dey can hide deir sadness in deir heart and we dun even noe abt it.. Everywhere I go, I was wonderin why everyone was so blessed? Deir face was so happy.. N mii face was juz lyk a rotten egg..

I wish I cn b dem.. Seen tUu hav no worries.. Why cnt I mk it.. Reali wonderin? Am I so shi bai?

Cnt even stand my mum naggin!! But it ish true!! Mum naggin was juz lyk a lion roar!! It was so loud n non-stop!! I was wonderin who wil stand tis kind of naggin!! Anyone gt any sugestion tUu help my ears?

Nw she was scoldin mii agn!! I nv did anything wrng n she star scoldin!! I reali duno why my life ish lyk tt? Who can conole mii? Feel lyk cryin agn.. Why? Why?

Who can tel mii?

I was wonderin whether I was in e wrng? But I am nt!! I am nt in e wrng!! Why does she scolded mii? Am I reali in e wrng? Why my sister do sumthing wrng she nv scolded her? Why? Is it bcuz she was young den mum dun wan scold her? Den mii elder can scold lah?

Eh!! Mii gt feelin one lah!!

Today my bed mayb goin tUu flood wif tears le.. Haiiz..

Anyone can console mii? Help mii please!!

Isit true tt no one reali noe mii well n nobody wan tUu cared 4 mii? Tts wat my mum say..

Isit true?
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Who can tel mii?

I did not ``regret loving you.. @ 10:15:00 PM




Saturday, July 01, 2006 Y


Pissin off nw..
Mum scoldin mii.. So wat sia!! I'm nt in e wrng okie?
Is my sister lah!! Cuz of her mii n my mum was havin a fightin nw.. So KNS..
Sisiter in e wrng bcum I got scolded!! Why? Why everytime I in e wrng?

Actually I am happy today at last cuz of this I bcum lyk tt..
Haiiz..

Went out wif my cousin today cuz I nt in e mood.. I n e mornin gt scolded le.. Den went out.. Sister wan tUu followed but I dun let her.. So mum was veri angry!! So?! Nthin ritz? Who ask my sis wan tUu draw on mii? She ish e 1 who ish wrng lah!! Hate her sia!! Nt goin tUu buy my sis a bday present le..

Mum say tt my life ish better den hers? Oh reali? She nw already can use compu le lah.. Mii lah.. Onli sec 1 lah!! WTF lor!! Reali veri wat sia!! Den so young already gt tuition.. WTH!! I never lah!! Den my mum say tt I nv say tt u cnt hav tuition.. Walau!! Veri CB lah!! I older den my sister lah.. Of cuZ I went through alot of thing lah!! Feel so piss off!! I'm nt in e wrng okie!! Ish my sister!! I wanna punish her.. I everytime let her den at last she climb up my head!! Goin tUu let mum c how she last time treat mii..

I'M NT IN E WRNG!! TISH IS EUU FORCE MII TUU DO ONE!! NT MY FAULT!!

Wan play arcade but cannot!! No body wan go play!! Cousin dun wanna play!!

Go shoppin was stil okie!! Haiiz..

Cnt writed le..

Mum was lyk so... Dun wan say le..

Nid tUu go le!! Mayb frm today onward I cnt uesd le.. Cuz today mum say I cannot used but I stil used!!

I wanna use cuz I finally can used my window messenger le!! Of cuz I wanna use ritz? Finally lah!!

I did not ``regret loving you.. @ 11:06:00 PM




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